Push Through It

The stress is getting to me
I have so much to do 
and almost no time
i just want to cry

How does society expect students
to go to school 40 hours a week,
another 20 including extracurricular activities,
Work 20 hours a week 
do homework 15 hours a week 
sleep 56 hours a week,
and still go above and beyond with projects and tests?
Not to mention all the time students are supposed to socialize
in order to make it in society.

We are humans
not robots. 

we have to somehow keep the sanity we don't have
we have to be proper and polite and ignore the pressure 
we have to fake a smile like everything is alright
we have to pretend like we are looking foreword to tomorrow.

we don't get praised for the work we do 
we only get yelled at for the work we don't do 
what is is supposed to help us
is really hurting us

We want to cry
but we cant
there is simply not enough time

So we go through life
numb
waiting for the days to end

But we push through it
knowing it's only temporary
and we will only grow stronger





I understand that teachers are supposed to push us to help us get better.
But what if they push us too far?

I Forgot Myself

I have just arrived in the Netherlands. Why did I choose the Netherlands? It's so cold and wet. What is the point of this place? Oh. My. God. I just remembered. I forgot something. I forgot the most important part of the trip. MYSELF! How could I forget Myself? What kind of a person am I? Last thing I remember was watching tv with Myself and I must've just forgot! Oh no. If I forgot Myself then I have forgotten Eye. What ever will I do without them. I hope the poor puppies don't get lonely. I'll call someone right away and have them sent here. 

~two days later~

Yay! Myself and Eye have arrived. All I want to do is spend time with them. Then we'll tour and cuddle and it will be fun. But we will have to go home and be with out family again. But until then, it is just me, Myself, and Eye.

Basically, Run.

And Hello love 

You called again? 

I'm sorry that happened.

I know what will end the pain.

We can go on an adventure.

To far away places

Meet new people 

See new faces

The Doctor seems pretty nice

Clara's cool too

We should join them

They'd love to have you

We could put on our fezzes 

Along with bow ties

And converse shoes

I can finally see the happiness in your eyes

When the doctor eventually leaves

And all is said and done 

There is nothing left to do

But basically, run

We run from our past

Our futures lie ahead

A story in the making

Waiting to be read

We are desperate for normalcy 

But that will never come

So we live on the edge of reality

And basically, run

Weaving through worlds 

Living several lives 

Cutting through reality

With dull knives 

We will never be normal

But that's part of the fun

Society will move out of our way

While we run

When I'm desperate to escape reality, I watch television. It is an alternative world that I enjoy and there are three people that enjoy it with me. Nick, Sarah, and Alex. 

Me and my Nickypoo 

Me and Alex

Alex and Nick taking my iPod and taking a bunch of unnecessary pictures

And the only picture of Sarah that I have on my iPod. #blackmailwednesday

Faith

Have faith in me 
that you are not worthless 
or dumb. 
You are not mean 
or selfish 
or ugly
fat 
useless
lazy
arrogant
trash 
concided
rude.
You do not deserve to go to hell
like your mother told you. 
You do not deserve the profanities
that have been shouted at you.
You do not deserve all the gossip behind your back.
And most of all, 
the people that are mean to you, 
do not deserve you.

You are much to kind.
and intelligent 
funny
beautiful
loving
fearless
persistent
confident
charming
imaginative 
humble
loyal 
honest 
and amazing.
Anyone who does not see that,
needs to open their eyes
and see the way you light up a room
with your smile and laughter. 
You should be happy
no matter what you think. 
Those people have put lies in your head. 
They do not own you. 
You own them. 
The world is yours. 

But first you have to see yourself.
Not the way others see you.
Ponder the way I think about you.
You will realize it is true. 
In order to do that, 
have a little faith in me. 
Like i have faith in you. 

And just remember 
i love you

Lost Love

FFarewell my friend

I am sad to see you go

Time is our enemy 

Letting us drift further apart

But i will have the memories we share

The smiles and tears we encountered 

The secrets we told 

And the love we have 

I will cry when you go 

I will cry because you are gone

We can not make new memories 

And time is not on our side 

Before you go 

I must tell you important words 

Keep them close to your heart 

Thank you 

Thank you for listening 

Thank you for caring 

Thank you for laughing 

Thank you for loving me 

Time has passed 

5 years or so 

I still think about our times together 

And my heart aches 

Time has passed 

20 years or so 

I only think of you when I see pictures 

My heart beats steadily 

Time has passed 

50 years or so

You never cross my mind 

My heart lost its love 

Time has passed 

70 years or so 

I can not remember what is on my mind 

My heart has lost you completely 

Before time passes

Remember one thing 

I loved you 

And you loved me 

My Doctor

"Doctor!" I shouted.
No response.
"Doctor! Doctor! Doctor!" I repeated.
Still no response.
Where is my precious Doctor? Has he been  captured by a Dalek? Has he lost the war between the Daleks and Time Lords?
He destroyed his planet to stop this war. He killed millions of children that never had a chance to live. If the Daleks won, then they would try to kill every living thing that is not a Dalek. He was forced to choose between his planet and the universe.
He has spent the last 900 years trying to live with his guilt. He saved thousands of galaxies, millions of plants, and billions upon billions of species. They all owe their lives to the Doctor. A man who tried to escape his past by saving the future.
But where is he now? My life is important too. He promised me he would not let me die under his watch. He is not here, so who is watching me?
I looked up to pray to every God in the universe. It was my last hope. But that is when i saw it. A figure moved swiftly towards me. I panicked. Was this how i was going to die? On a planet trillions of light-years away from Earth.
"Hello, love." A familiar voice chimed behind me.
My Doctor has come just in time to see me die.
But my Doctor had other plans.

Alone

He wakes with a smile

and sleeps with a frown.

He dances in the rain

and soaks his pillow at night.

His laughter chimes in the open wind,

but is ruined by sobs.

His beauty shines brighter than the sun,

but is darkened by clouds.

Every day he fights a war. 

An internal one.

But he wakes in the morning 

with a smile on his face,

like yesterday never happened.

He is a true soldier.

Fighting for happiness

that may never come.

And I will fight along with him. 

So he will not be alone.

And when we die,

we may not be happy. 

But we will not die alone.