I have a secret

My dearest,
I have a secret
Please dont be scared
I am not normal
like everyone else

I'm different like Superman
He wants to protect the world
but he has special powers

If anyone were to find out
that Clark Kent was superman
he would be tested on

He would be a celebrity
for no reason

He wants a normal life
Which is why he hides.
He can not help his differences
He can only hope to be normal.

I want a normal life
I am hiding my true self
I am hiding my differences
I want to be normal

But sometimes superheros
can not hide
and neither can i

I am sorry for not telling you sooner
Sincerely,
Clark Kent

Friends?

Why are you ignoring me?

Did I do something wrong?

Can you at least acknowledge my existence?

Why not?

I used to be your best friend

Until you started hanging out with "them"

You used to complain how you didn't fit in

Now im he odd one out. 

But, do you have to rub it in my face?

Tell me stories and laugh at the good times

Of course i'm jealous

Because those memories aren't mine

 

I can no longer look to the future

Only back in the past

To remember what used to be 

and how it didn't last

You still call me "best friend"

but in reality, im the last on your list.

Stop trying to fool yourself

and stop trying to fool me

I understand that people move on

but we were really close.

and now

You don't know me anymore

and you don't care

because you care about nothing but yourself

I deserve to be happy

and loved

Like you made me feel for a long time

But now i see that was fake

You did't love me

You used me

But now you have new "friends"

So you can apparently move on

While I try to fit in again

with someone who will love me

20 years down the line

You'll ask "Are we still friends?"

The answer will be no

because friendship has an end. 

Push Through It

The stress is getting to me
I have so much to do 
and almost no time
i just want to cry

How does society expect students
to go to school 40 hours a week,
another 20 including extracurricular activities,
Work 20 hours a week 
do homework 15 hours a week 
sleep 56 hours a week,
and still go above and beyond with projects and tests?
Not to mention all the time students are supposed to socialize
in order to make it in society.

We are humans
not robots. 

we have to somehow keep the sanity we don't have
we have to be proper and polite and ignore the pressure 
we have to fake a smile like everything is alright
we have to pretend like we are looking foreword to tomorrow.

we don't get praised for the work we do 
we only get yelled at for the work we don't do 
what is is supposed to help us
is really hurting us

We want to cry
but we cant
there is simply not enough time

So we go through life
numb
waiting for the days to end

But we push through it
knowing it's only temporary
and we will only grow stronger





I understand that teachers are supposed to push us to help us get better.
But what if they push us too far?

I Forgot Myself

I have just arrived in the Netherlands. Why did I choose the Netherlands? It's so cold and wet. What is the point of this place? Oh. My. God. I just remembered. I forgot something. I forgot the most important part of the trip. MYSELF! How could I forget Myself? What kind of a person am I? Last thing I remember was watching tv with Myself and I must've just forgot! Oh no. If I forgot Myself then I have forgotten Eye. What ever will I do without them. I hope the poor puppies don't get lonely. I'll call someone right away and have them sent here. 

~two days later~

Yay! Myself and Eye have arrived. All I want to do is spend time with them. Then we'll tour and cuddle and it will be fun. But we will have to go home and be with out family again. But until then, it is just me, Myself, and Eye.

Basically, Run.

And Hello love 

You called again? 

I'm sorry that happened.

I know what will end the pain.

We can go on an adventure.

To far away places

Meet new people 

See new faces

The Doctor seems pretty nice

Clara's cool too

We should join them

They'd love to have you

We could put on our fezzes 

Along with bow ties

And converse shoes

I can finally see the happiness in your eyes

When the doctor eventually leaves

And all is said and done 

There is nothing left to do

But basically, run

We run from our past

Our futures lie ahead

A story in the making

Waiting to be read

We are desperate for normalcy 

But that will never come

So we live on the edge of reality

And basically, run

Weaving through worlds 

Living several lives 

Cutting through reality

With dull knives 

We will never be normal

But that's part of the fun

Society will move out of our way

While we run

When I'm desperate to escape reality, I watch television. It is an alternative world that I enjoy and there are three people that enjoy it with me. Nick, Sarah, and Alex. 

Me and my Nickypoo 

Me and Alex

Alex and Nick taking my iPod and taking a bunch of unnecessary pictures

And the only picture of Sarah that I have on my iPod. #blackmailwednesday

Faith

Have faith in me 
that you are not worthless 
or dumb. 
You are not mean 
or selfish 
or ugly
fat 
useless
lazy
arrogant
trash 
concided
rude.
You do not deserve to go to hell
like your mother told you. 
You do not deserve the profanities
that have been shouted at you.
You do not deserve all the gossip behind your back.
And most of all, 
the people that are mean to you, 
do not deserve you.

You are much to kind.
and intelligent 
funny
beautiful
loving
fearless
persistent
confident
charming
imaginative 
humble
loyal 
honest 
and amazing.
Anyone who does not see that,
needs to open their eyes
and see the way you light up a room
with your smile and laughter. 
You should be happy
no matter what you think. 
Those people have put lies in your head. 
They do not own you. 
You own them. 
The world is yours. 

But first you have to see yourself.
Not the way others see you.
Ponder the way I think about you.
You will realize it is true. 
In order to do that, 
have a little faith in me. 
Like i have faith in you. 

And just remember 
i love you